Attention Seeking much?

Don't you think that some people just loveeee attention?

They just can't get over themselves. Gosh, it's like, everything has to be about them, them and them. They post hanging statuses so people will get all curious and be like, "Hey, what happened? Are u okay?" And they'll be like, "Yeah, I guess.. It's nothing actually."

I mean, like, seriously? Go get a life man.

Really, interaction with fellow human being is waayyy better than interaction with electronic stuff. If you're really down or sad, talk to your close friend. Or me :)

Hmmm. Why do I feel so agitated? Oh yeah. I had Computing Quiz today.

And I can't believe I'm so effing stupid and left my Finite Math book in college on a table.

Don't. Ever. Judge.

I miscalculated.

You know, I actually don't mind if people want to talk bad about me behind my back or judge me. I mean, it's your prerogative and who am I to stop you?

But don't ever judge me before you even know me. Don't assume things about me when you honestly know nothing about me. If, after you get to know me and all, you still decided that you want to talk about me, fine, go ahead. Because at least you already know what kind of person am I.

See, there are people like this all over the place. They like to spread rumors about you when they don't even know you. I just wish that people like this don't exist.

You're more superior? Screw you.

Screw you if you think you're more superior than the rest of us.

Screw you.

What gave you the idea that you're better than us? No one is more superior than another and no one has the right to discriminate others just cuz that person feels superior.

You have no rights to think that you're better. We are all the same. We're equals. Heck, we're of the same age!

*all that stupid pronoun reference thing I learnt in English makes me question my own English. I feel so inadequate now*

Damn my schedule

I'm so tired and sleepy now. :(

Oh wow, I noticed that I normally blog when I'm really tired! =.= What kind of syndrome is this?

Anyways, I'm not much of a night person so yes, unless I'm having insomnia, I usually sleep around 1 or before 12. And right now, I'm so sleepy I can fall asleep like, right now.

It's the Computing's fault. What kind of a boring subject is this? I could stay up the whole night reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows and finish the whole book in 2 days but once I open up the Computing book, my eyelids immediately get heavier.

Why is foundation's timetable sooo hectic? It felt as if I just started college yesterday and I already have quizzes, presentations, assignments and exams lining up. Damn.

Quizzes are this week and next.

Study Skills assignment must be handed in in 2 weeks time.

Computing survey form by tmr.

Mid term starts on the 16th of October, 2 weeks from now.

Msian Studies presentation 2 weeks from now. (fuck man. there's video shooting summore)

And I'm not even in chapter 2 for Computing and the quiz is this Thursday.

That's what I get for procrastinating and doing everything last minute, as usual.

I need to be optimistic and positive. Never, ever let anyone, including myself, bring me down.

Money minded, me? Nah. Not just me. You too. :)

Someone once told me(in a joking way) that I'm money-minded. And you know what I said?

I said, "SCREW YOU, everyone is money minded!!"

OK, so maybe I did not exactly say those words, but I was DEFINITELY thinking it. But of course, as a gentle being as myself *cough*, I just smiled politely and said no, I'm not.

But I think I am. No wait, erase that. I KNOW that I am.

I mean, face it, who isn't?

And I'm sooooo in need of money right now. :'(

Gosh, you wanna know how obsessed I am about making money right now? I'm supposed to study for my quizzes this week, but instead, I'm brainstorming of ways to make money (legal way. DUH?!).

Boobs

It's so draining.

OK, I noticed I've been complaining a lot lately but please pardon me (PMS). It'll be back to cheery and happy posts shortly.

How do you enlarge your boobs?? Without having to go through surgery, of course. These are some of the ridiculous( or it might be true) suggestions I got from friends, relatives etc. You get the picture.

1. Eat more papaya. (like how much is a lot?)

2. Drink more milk. (hmmm..)

3. Drink papaya milk. (okay so this is like idea 1 and 2 combined. Does it give a better effect?)

4. Eat more chicken (err.. huh?)

5. Do Pilate. (no comment)

6. Massage your own breasts. (preferably done by your boyfriend)

7. Don't wear bra when you sleep. (OK so maybe your boobs grow at night?)

8. Exercise, push-ups etc. (even if this plan backfires, at least you're exercising.)

9. Pills and creams. (before you try any of these, make sure you know the ingredients first.)

But seriously, I bet MOST women would want really large, could-stuff-them-in-your-face kind of boobs. So I bet those with small bosoms have google-ed ways to enlarge boobs at least once in their lifetime.

I'm not being long-winded.

What I'm trying to say is, I'm sure all of you who google-ed about this before definitely came across suggestions as stated above. So if all of them are true, the world will be filled with large bosoms women and everywhere you look, huge breasts the size of heads will be staring straight at you.

Cheers to boobies!! :D

Sleep early?

I'm soo tired. But I have to keep up the positive attitude. I don't want any negativity around.

Well.. It's easier said than done. I don't get why I feel so tired all the time. OK, maybe I DO know why. I think I should start sleeping early. :D

I hate PMS-es. It sucks to the max! And note that I did not take out the letter 'P' from the word PMS.

I realized that my initial thoughts were wrong. There are still people who only befriend you to take advantage of you. And they're all over the place.

Colours

I don't know why but I like my blog to be colourful.

I'll cheer up when I look at the pretty colours. I hope it brings the same effect to you too :) Which makes me wonder.. What's my favourite colour?

*oh shit what am I doing here I'm supposed to be studying and doing homework and.. holy crap! Tutorial's tmr. FML*

Plastic Surgery

Ok so let's talk about plastic surgery. Umm, what's there to talk about?

Ohh yeah. Will YOU ever resolve to do plastic surgery

to change your looks? The desperate measures people take just to look good *shakes head*. Maybe a few minor surgeries are ok...I guess? Like, maybe a few corrective ones like nos

e job. (not that I'm thinking of getting one) Hmmm, so is boob job a major or minor surgery? Oh wth am I crapping about.

No wait, you should google images of plastic surgeries that went wrong. OMG I tell you, it'll put you off surgery for the rest of your life (maybe). The price people have to pay just to look good.

But seriously, be grateful with your looks. Everyone's beautiful and gorgeous in their own way. It's when you start to purposely change the way you look that might alter people's view of you. Be confident in yourself, you're beautiful.

Oh now I've got the song 'Beautiful' by Christina Aguilera stuck in my head =.= Awesome song, btw. :)

Oh my God I just remembered! When I was in high school, there was this girl who was talking about getting a nose job. For no apparent reason.

And we were SO surprised. She's the type of nerdy girls who study a lot. But.. Oh well. That just proves that we can't judge a book by its cover.

Hmmm... I'm curious as to how she looks like now though. She went overseas upon graduation. I never get to see her after that.

Week 3 (or is it 4?)

It's the third week of college (I think). And all the assignments and homework and tutorial questions are starting to take a toll on me. How did I manage before this???

My brain is still in the process of warming up, literally. Yes, it's more active than before but it still hasn't warmed up to the whole studying thing yet - the consequences of not using my brain for 9 months.

But really, it's just soooo exhausting. OK, I admit, it's partially my fault. But hey, it's not all my fault! I might have been procrastinating a little, waste my time online the whole day (see, I'm even blogging rite now), read novels when I'm free, eat when I have nothing else to do, disturb my siblings when they're doing their homework and.. Oh, dear Lord, it IS my fault, isn't it? I know I should study and finish up all my homework before I do anything else but still.. Priorities are priorities *wink*

And I feel sooooo tired and sleepy all the time! Must be from all the sleeping late due to reading novels and going online. HEH :P

Oh, shit. I'm having Computing quiz next week. I hate Computing.

Food

Oh, God. I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm eating CONSTANTLY and A LOT.

It's been.. what, a week? My mum says I'm growing up =.=. But seriously, I can have like, I don't know how many lunch and dinner per day. Plus, I'm eating a lot of junk food.

Thank goodness my weight remained the same or I'll be freaking out. Contrary to what everyone was telling me, I dropped 3 kg since I stopped swimming. Wheee! Haha and my weight has stayed there ever since, fluctuating a lil once in a while.

It's so tiring to have to constantly put a smile to my face, even when I did not feel like it. It's so tiring to have to constantly make people think that I'm happy and cheerful. But I'm not gonna complain about it. Because I want to be cheerful at all times. :)

Now all I have to do, is let go of everything, sit back and enjoy the show. :)

Nostalgia

It's not a very good idea to watch really emo music videos when you're not feeling really cheerful. It brings you down even more.

But you should really watch this music video for a korean song. It's called "Kiss-because I'm a girl". Damn sad. Haha

All of a sudden, I miss high school. Feeling nostalgic.

Out of control

It seemed like the more I tried to make sense of things, the more things get more complicating. The more I get closer to making a decision, the more things spiral out of control. The more I want to fix it, the more broken it gets.

That's not all. I'm ok with complicated. I'm ok with things getting way out of control. I'm ok with broken things. What I'm NOT ok with, is that when I start to accept the complicating-out of control-broken things, it all starts making sense again and somehow, it starts to mend itself.

And I'll get sucked into it all over again and before I know it, I'm back to phase 1. And the whole godamn process repeats itself. Over and over again.

I feel so frustrated. And lost. And confused. I want to get to the end of things. But when things seem to be reaching an end, it looks like the beginning all over again.

I am so right about life being a bitch.

Wishes

I'm going to be totally random again and talk about things that aren't related to whatever's happening around me.

Don't you just wish that some people would just grow up and understand certain things?
Don't you just wish people would stop judging you before knowing you?
Don't you wish that everyone that you care for can just understand you?
Don't you wish that all bitches and jerks can just burn in hell? (totally random, I know)
Don't you wish that you would stop procrastinating and finish up whatever that you're supposed to finish?
Don't you wish that people will stop lying to you?
Don't you wish that all hypocrites and two-faced bitches would burn in hell?
Don't you wish that your partner will stay loyal to you for the rest of your life?
Don't you wish you live in a fairytale life?

And the list goes on and on.

At some point, you'll wish for any of the things mentioned above. But life's a bitch. And you have to face that.

And it's time to wake up. THIS is the reality, the real world, where nothing and nobody's perfect.

Carefree

Thank goodness tmr's a holiday. I need to recharge and re-energize.

I don't know why I feel so tired all the time. And for some unknown reason, I feel like eating all the time too.

I'm a lil tired of all those stuff. I mean, can't people just grow up a little bit?

I'm tired of worrying too.

I wanna be carefree. I don't wanna give a damn. But obviously, I can't.

Undecisive

You see, sometimes you'll get thorn between two decisions. It happens all the time.

I was thorn between two decisions as well. I've made mine. And I felt like a bitch.

It's not up to me to say anything, but you will see their true colours soon. And then, you can be the judge.

Partially horrible day

It's like everything bad had to happen all at once.

The bitch had to scold us in class. And she had to nag for 10 whole minutes. Why us? Everyone else was talking too.

And you know the thing about hypocrites and two-faced people? Yeah, something like that along with something else had to happen too.

It's sooo emotionally draining. But no point feeling down or upset over some stupid stuff rite. Haha so thank goodness we picked ourself up.

Love the new and different people that I met. :)

random

Seriously, sometimes I just feel like throwing my books/bags/stationeries at him. He CAN'T teach at all!!! OMG I feel so frustrated just listening to him crap. HE GETS ON MY NERVES. And pisses me off.

Oh and it was such a disappointment today. Thought we could finally see who the 'hot' lecturer is. But... PFFT. HOT??

And.. Gosh, how could he actually sensed that?? I didn't even noticed it until he asked me about it. He said I was avoiding him. But I wasn't doing it on purpose. Really.

untitled

I did not notice that I hadn't been exercising for quite some time until I went jogging just now.

OMG I can die, not literally. But now I know how unhealthy I have been for the past few months after Sukma.

Gotta start exercising more frequently! But first, I need some motivation. :P

Oh yeah and I met up with my secondary school friends today. So happy! (Y)

Fear

OMFG there was this immigrant asshole who stalked me today and I was soooo effing scared I almost cried.

Oh thank God I got rid of him. This, added with all my other really horrible experiences when taking public transport alone, made me fear taking public transport.

I hate taking public transport alone. I hate it.

Totally random

Sometimes, it's amazing what people will do to grab your attention.

And you'll be like, wth?

On another note entirely, I feel so lazy nowadays. College started for 2 weeks but I'm not in any mood to start doing homework or study yet.

Oh, I'm just so tired that I've totally forgotten what was it that I wanted to say.

I get hyper when I'm super tired. And I don't make any sense when I'm hyper. Wait, why am I posting this again?

And to be totally random, one of my lecturer was PMS-ing today. OMG he's worst than girls that are PMS-ing.

Effing tired

OMG I'm so effing tired.

And how am I supposed to stay awake for 4 classes tmr?? And I have to wake up at 6! This sucks.

I'm even too exhausted to ellaborate.

Yesh I Understand

Oh, yes. I finally understand. I'm not confused anymore. I totally get it.

But I'm sorry, it doesn't change anything.

Crap

I really, really hope I did not give any wrong impression.

Oh My God I feel super weird now. I was soooo dumb!! I hope nothing will happen. Hopefully it stays that way.

Or maybe - hopefully - I'm just thinking too much? *cross your fingers*

Opinions

There's no right or wrong. It's just that your opinions and mine are different.

So can you please stop asking me to live the sort of lifestyle that YOU think I should? Because that's not my idea of a lifestyle at all.

And yes, I realise that certain decisions of mine might dissapoint some people one way or another; but I'm not perfect. I live my life. Don't tell me how to live it.

Effing bitch from the restaurant.

You're supposed to give us 5 star treatment, instead you gave me that effing look. And I'm the one who's paying for your tips.

No more regrets and no more pain. It ain't that hard after all. =)

Tomorrow's a Saturday

Thank God tmr's a Saturday. I'm absolutely wiped out. So freaking tired!!!

Haha I don't really know what's so tiring though. And it wasn't even a whole week of college (Monday and Tuesday were holiday) so I only attended classes for 3 days. But somehow, it's sooooooo tiring. :S

Bringing pillow to class nxt week! Sleep! Hahaha (college brought out the kid in me =.=)

It ain't always about you.

Please, don't kid yourself into thinking that you're having a great impact on my life.

Cuz you're not.

Expect the unexpected baby!!

Hahaha OMG college! Wheee. So many crazy friends there. LOL

Real Life Quotes

You don't have to try to forget, cuz you won't forget; just try not to think about it, and learn to forgive, and learn to move on.

Sometimes you just have to try not to care no matter how much you do because sometimes you mean nothing to someone who means everything to you.

Just because you were happy with him, doesn't mean you can't be happy without him.

Awesome song. Check out Katy Perry's The One That Got Away. Super sweet.

Not recommended for people recovering from a break-up. Or just broke up.

Today

OMG today was... I dunno. Really different I guess. Haha it was so fun! (not the lessons though)

We had Computing and the lesson was only about half an hour cuz everyone did not hv the lab book. So in the end, instead of finishing at 12 like how it was supposed to be, it ended at 1030.

And so, me and Su Shern had like around 3 and half hours to kill.

And therefore, we went to MidValley and watched a movie! Haha

Then, we were slightly late for our next class which was at 2. It was Finite Mathematics. Oops! Anyways had a nice time getting to know people. Su Shern is one busy woman. Lol

History

I succeeded in doing it before. I'll succeed in doing it again.

No more reasons, no more excuses.